Friday, January 13, 2012

"I can't take one more sleepless night without you"

Two songs that I have been listening to on repeat the last few days, both done on FOX Glee. They just sums things up a lot, and even though the two songs don't pertain to any situation lately, they have pertained a little bit in the past. Both songs, in the end, give me a positive outlook on life and the things that go on each day.
Love Always and Forever
Your Daughter,

Saturday, January 7, 2012

I wont give up- Jason Mraz

   Although this song is probably not about a mother-daughter relationship, every time I listen I think of Shelby and I and our relationship with you. You never gave up on us and we never gave up on you....yet at the same time, you knew that we needed time to learn who we were- apart from you.

Thank you for being our Mom.

Love always and Forever
Your daughter,

A new year, and the motivation to continue.

     I know it has been a while since I have written here, but I really felt it neccessary to share this story with you. Last night I had a dream that I was talking with you about my goals and why, though completely frightened by failure, I will pursue my life long dreams of going to Graduate school, visiting New York City, and publishing a novel.

    I don't remember much of the dream, but I do remember one paragraph, which I have decided to use as my motivation for the year of 2012. Here it is (poor grammar and all) :
"I have fallen.scrapped.cut.bruised. I have endured surgery.physical therapy and stationary bikes. I have gone through orthopedic braces. walkers. crutches and canes. I have done all this, and yet I have never failed to find a reason to pick myself off the ground and continue... So why am I allowing myself to start now? Why should I diminish my prior accomplishments and believe they can never compare to the dreams I wish to pursue today? If I can accomplish all that I have in regards to my Cerebral Palsy than it is possible for me  to go to New York, get into grad school, and publish a novel. If I can continue to conquer my disability, I can continue to conquer my dreams. I will do it."
Though after waking up I still am completely afraid of the uncertainty that lies in my future, this is my motivation. I will be the person I wish to become. I will stop at nothing to make my dreams become my reality. I will focus on doing what you, Dad, and Shelby have taught me- I will continue to never give up on myself.

Love Always and Forever
Your Daughter,